Feeling the Love

Summer is here, baby! After work today, I met with two of my really good friends, D and P at a local Starbucks. M, we missed you! I actually had some self control and ordered iced green tea instead of my usual coffee. Yay, me!

D and P had a huge surprise for me. They put together a tote filled with goodies from my friends at my old school, WH. Man, do I miss that place. Nostalgia hit last week when I visited for the first time after I moved to middle school. Although I like my new school, it is nothing like WH, my second home and family.

I read in a book somewhere that when you are diagnosed with a life threatening disease such as cancer, it is overwhelming the amount of love and support that you receive from friends and family from all walks of life. Even more than when you get married or have a baby. I've been feeling a lot of that lately, but today, I was taken aback by the generous gift from my WH family. It is so cliche to say that I was at a loss for words. But really, how does one explain the feeling? I wanted to cry, I wanted to give it all back, I wanted no one to know...it's so hard to accept gifts and offers of help. But at the same time, I felt so grateful that I have these wonderful people to call my friends.

It's just that I usually never ask for help of any kind. I always just deal with things on my own. To know that I am loved and cared for so much and by so many people... I just never knew. Never.

Don't you ever wonder, sometimes, how many people would attend your funeral? What people would say? Yeah, I just went there.

Tomorrow, I have my pre-op and ultrasound. Then comes my port surgery on Friday. Good times.

I leave you with a picture of the super cute tote that D and P shopped for. They know my taste exactly. The lining was lime green, people! Inside, I found all sorts of things that are going to be useful during chemo (D did lots of research on this)...gum, mints, socks, jammies, lotions, and much more. You can suck it, cancer! You got nothing on me!