The World Turned Upside Down

We haven't posted here in forever, but I guess now is a good time as any to document our emotional journey.

3/31 - Wow, where do I begin. Here we are at the Doctor's office to find out the results of Chinh's biopsy. As you can guess by the title, the Dr. didn't have good news for us. To say we were devastated would be an understatement. Everything after that was pretty much a blur. We had committed that afternoon to go to James' one month celebration, but we knew that we couldn't put on a smile and didn't want to take away from the celebration. We were an emotional wreck. Picking up the phone to call our parents was so difficult. As usual, parents will be parents and offered positive, supportive words. Like anything else, word travels fast and we had some visitors that evening and a few phone calls.

4/1 - We're really wishing that this was a joke, but no such luck. We had originally planned for the kids to have an Easter egg hunt on Easter, but Chinh has surgery that weekend so in order to try and keep things fairly normal we decided to do it on April 1st. Her brother's family came over and so did her sister. We carried on as usual and tried our best to keep things "normal", but there was some awkwardness. The kids had a great time and it was starting to get late. It was time to address the elephant in the room. We had our heart to heart that left everybody feeling closer than ever (we really needed that guys).

4/2 - Man this is rough. Chinh is slowly getting a great support network going, but I'm still struggling a bit. Got to work and informed my boss and a few others. Trying hard not to be an emotional mess every time I told somebody what's going on. I couldn't function at all at work. I finally had enough and left for the day. I really needed some time alone. Chinh had some new contact numbers and spent some time talking to some strong women that have gone through this already. By the evening, my support group had also grown exponentially. Outside family and friends, the mountain biking community has really shown us lots of love and support. I went to put Matthew to sleep and I was out cold at 8.

4/3 - Woke up refreshed today. Something about today felt different. My alone time helped, but just talking to people about it helps so much more. I was able to talk to people about it without feeling like I was going to ball. Heck I was able to tolerate working the whole day. When Chinh got home, she felt the same way. I guess we're starting to move forward. Chinh had a phone conversation with a woman that really gave her inspiration. Tomorrow is the pre-op and we were trying to come up with some questions for them. We really don't know what to ask. So what did we do? We contacted a certain Dr. in Georgia (thanks bro!). Who woulda thought he could be professional. Of course the last few minutes went downhill real fast.

I'll try to keep this updated so everybody is informed of what's going on. The other reason I'm blogging is I think it's going to help keep my sanity. My grammar sucks and I'm too lazy fix it. :)
I know all the teachers are pulling their hair out reading this.

Hey Cancer..... my wife is going to kick your f-ing ass!!!