Ready?

If you read my last post, you know that I NEED to watch Thor . Ahem, more like watch Chris Hemsworth in Thor. This is Matthew sporting his new Thor mask. I swear I had nothing to do with him wanting to buy it.

I'm ready for the Big Shave today. We are seeing my sister in law this afternoon at 5:30, so she can buzz it as short as possible. I am so ready for it to happen. Initially, I scheduled for Friday. But this morning I woke up to hair all over my pillow. It was totally gross. I grabbed some hair to see how much would come loose and out came a whole handful. Not just a few strands anymore. I also asked the kids if they wanted to pull on my hair to see what would happen. Both of them tried it (Matthew did it 3 times). They were a little freaked out, but amused at the same time.

Some people think I should just let the hair fall out on its own until I'm completely bald. It sounds great in theory, but you have to imagine what I'm going through. I showered this morning and there was hair everywhere. It wouldn't stop shedding. I had it all over my face and it was stuck to my body. When I tried to wash off the hair, more would come out. It was horrible. I had to bend forward to wash everything off so the water wouldn't touch my hair, or else it would just keep coming. I gently combed my hair to get rid of the strands that were already loose. You can see in the picture how much came out after I combed it.

The kids and I did a little shopping today and I tried to keep my head as still as possible. I never once touched my hair after this morning. I didn't want to leave a trail on my clothes or on the ground behind me.

It's not coming out in clumps yet, but I need to take control. It will still continue to fall out after I buzz it. At that point, I will just use a lint roller to remove any remaining hair.

By the way, AC chemo #2 is scheduled for tomorrow at 1:40. I had my blood drawn today and everything looks good, so all will go as planned. I am so not looking forward to the Neupogen shots again. My next post will show off my newly buzzed head. Remember, we're hoping for a round one.

This is what came out from gently combing through my hair this morning.